vicarious living

My sister jogged 2 miles today!

 

asked her how. She does not know. But she did it. She kept going. Some walkers passed her, but she persevered. Yea for my sister's accomplishment!

I walked for 30 minutes on Tuesday and 15 minutes today. It was a much needed return to the treadmill after something like a 3 month hiatus. It was good for me. I felt it in my legs. My legs haven't been right since I couldn't walk 1.5 weeks ago so I'm hoping this return to the treadmill helps. Maybe I'll eventually jog 2 miles... except I was reflecting earlier on how I can't even jog around the block. * sigh *

It's 10:45pm and I am wide awake. This is abnormal for me. This is day 3 in the control stage for me. Is their a link so close to the start of this thing? I first felt the energy surge yesterday. I had one of those my mouth is moving much faster than anyone else is listening moments shortly after lunch. I had a healthy lunch: brown rice, tofu, and vegetables (Pei Wei). Energy comes and goes. I was ready to go to sleep during the first 2/3 of work today. haha. But, I do feel better. I might be able to deal with my diet of popcorn, soy cream, corn chips, and fruit if I can keep this energy level up. Now pain is a different story.... :(

Good night, ya'll!

glorious influence

I spoke to my sister today. She told me her youngest son, my fabulous Chris, has talked incessantly about being a nude model when he grows up since returning home after his TN trip.



She doesn't like the idea. I said at least he has goals. True to my reasoning, I suppose, I said it'd be a nice side income while he's college. THAT'S WHAT HE SAID! But he's never wanted to go to college when they talked about it in the past. I then said at least he's comfortable with his body now and will hopefully continue to be as he grows up. She thinks he's focused on getting to see other people naked. I think he has ambition.

It amuses me what my sweethearts will share with their mom :D.

I had a surge of energy this afternoon. I don't know what prompted it. I had brown rice, tofu, and veggies for dinner. Not a lunch to increase the sleepies, I suppose. Since then, energy comes and goes. "I am determined to get better." I'm on day 2 of the control phase of the diet.

Right now, I'm supposed to be giggling with old roommates in GA



but I'm not because there's too much going on at work. Given that shift in details, I should be in bed




but I'm not because I stayed at work until 11pm to create an organized binder with the things needed for Monday's audit.




I feel like I had an opportunity to show a more efficient me with this binder situation but I didn't. Instead, working on it has resulted in long days and a desk that looks like it's been hit with a hurricane and has easily a dozen items on it that I can't find right now, like certain books. Yes, entire books. Paperback.

Part of why I stayed so late today is because I wasted a bunch of time gathering documents that my boss told me I need but I don't really need. I found that out today after I had gathered all of those documents. I could have left at 11pm but been done, at least, if I had known that (haHa!). She told me to include a copy of our quarterly report. What she meant was, include the first 3 pages but don't worry about the subsequent 75 pages. Oh for that detail! But it's done now. Some things.

Today, I also found out that I have something like $3700 unspent last year.




I'm not even gonna go there.


Art show preparation is moving slowly but not at a stand still. I'm really looking forward to getting it all together next week after the audit is done.

I hope that goes well.

Today, I pulled something off the printer and thought it said, "god hates you". Do you think it means he hates me? Before, I saw "what are you waiting for" in something that didn't say that and thought perhaps it was God talking to me about coming out. Same communication principle, different things communicated-- maybe. Maybe it's just a sign of my spiritual insanity.

ah, well, i'll stop the rambling now and actually go to bed.

moving on

Today,I mailed in my application to work at VA Hospital somewhere in middle TN. I didn't see KSOs (essay questions) with this application so I e-mailed then called the HR person for the positions for direction. She never replied. I'm sending positive energy that way.

a positive

Thinking about the art show makes me feel better. Yea for little things.

Today, I uploaded some more shots to print. Hopefully, I'll get by Wolf Camera tomorrow to pick them up. I forgot I had 4 options for people/shots. I'll see what looks best in person.

Namaste.

thoughts between consciousness and sleep

I feel like I'm dying. I ache all over; it's bad enough that it wakes me up while I'm asleep. Until it's time to wake up. It took me 90 minutes to get up this morning (i.e., 90 minutes after my alarm first went off. I don't even remember those first 10 beeps or whatever). During the day, I mostly want to sleep. During that time just before waking when I have "deep" thoughts, it's occurred to me that I'd quit my job if I could afford to because I feel like shyt. More realistic, I'd take a week off if I wasn't supposed to go to GA this week. It'd look bad for me to take today and tomorrow off because I'm sick, then go to GA for 3 days. I'm thinking of asking my doctor to put me on short term medical leave if I don't feel better soon but there are several important things going on at work that I can't walk away from. This is one reason I want a simpler job. I'm treating myself like crap to get the work done but in the end, there's only me. This is the kind of shyt that got me sick in the first place. I wish I could do it all over. I wish I could have this job but not put it first so maybe then I wouldn't be so sick.

off to get dressed now....