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Friday, December 30, 2011

your 2 cents

Here's the situation:

Memphis and I expressed intention to spend New Year's Eve together.

Memphis stated she's going to church and invited me to go. I responded, I don't want to spend New Year's Eve at church. She asked about Tunica (casinos). I told her to check to see if there are any cover charges/party special charges, et cetera and I'll check on some Memphis options. She said there are no covers but never investigated further as far as I know. I checked on some things for Memphis but nothing really surfaced of interest so I decided to commit to my high school class New Year's Eve party. I wanted to go but didn't want to be there at midnight and didn't want to commit my whole night to that location. My suggestion: Let's go to Memphis' church and then swing by the c/o 2000 party, staying for about a hour. She rejected that. She has no interest in meeting my friends more or less. Alternate suggestion: she go to church; I go to the party, we meet up after. Response? no. Here's my new delimina: my class party was canceled. I have nothing in particular to do so I could go to church with her. Should I?

Saturday, December 17, 2011

life summary

It has been a while since I've been here to write. Praises to the Tilley for installing my new keyboard. Now, typing isn't such a pain.

So, how to sum up life? I'll start with Fitness & Health 'cause I received an e-mail inquiring about that and I don't think i ever answered.

Fitness/Health: They suck. I exercised for that week, then stopped. I got into Christmas shopping instead. That had a brilliant start. I'm excited about the gifts I'm giving this year. They are "bigger" as in more expensive than usual. One of my giving highs is buying little Christian some Yamaha electric drums. If you have not already, go to his facebook entertainment page and like him: Fatigue increases and wanes; all-in-all no better than I was when I started exercising.

I joined the YMCA 'cause they were waving their membership fee and offer water zumba, self-defense, and yoga. I have yet to actually use that new membership, however. I'm on week 1 of membership I believe.

I half-way tested nightshade plants as an allergen. Those things are messed up! They make me burn. One night, I woke up thinking I was on fire. I checked my bed thinking my electric blanket had sparked it and took off my shirt thinking it was on fire. The results aren't that bad unless I eat a bunch but wow. A co-worker nicely told me she thinks they negatively effect my personality as well. lol. I'm finding they are a hard thing to avoid. I eat sour cream b/c I like it. Nightshades, particularly tomato based items, just seem 'bout impossible to avoid. And ketchup!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh my. It was just today that I realized I need to stop using it so liberally. *weep, weep, weep* What do you like with your french fries? Umm. I guess I'm not supposed to eat those either. *pout*

Right now, I feel bad 'cause I'm only about a week out from the experiment and went through 2 night shade plant intense holiday parties since then. So. much. pain. And I gave mom my trauma oil 'cause I'm a nice, caring daughter. I'm hoping the health food store is open tomorrow so I can replace my bottle.

For the pursuit of Love: I'm kind of fed up with this to tell you the truth. This year has seen me dating 3 different people & getting hurt and hurting in the process. You previously read about me dating 2 people at the same time. Tilley & I lasted longer but broke up about a month ago. She was really angry about me ending that relationship. I was noticing the horrible things that people who dated me were saying so I traveled to livejournal to ponder. The review of each relationship since 2010 showed me that it's better for me not to be nice and to be less honest. Twice since 2010, there was a situation when I told someone I wasn't feeling them but they didn't hear it. My only rationale is that my tone was too soft and I was too nice. I'm not sure how to be mean when I say such things but "I think we should be friends" and "I don't love you" isn't forceful enough for anyone to listen to what I'm saying. Anywho, I'm on take 3.5 as I went on a date with Memphis last weekend. I've also fought with her since then. I have serious doubts on going back down that road but here I am. We'll see. It'll be nice if it works out but today's not a great day for finding optimism from me. I think I'm tired and have a massive to do list of important tasks-- energy drain, spirit drain.

Christmas: We're having our first that I remember family pot luck. My cousin and her mom now live together and wanted to host it. I love getting with my family. Always.

New Year's: no clue what I'll be doing

Work: Frustrating. Friday, I could honestly say I didn't want to be working there.

Church: I think I don't go 'cause I don't expect to find anywhere that I like and am fully accepted. Tomorrow, hopefully, I'll return to the Episcopal church and see how that goes.

Good night, friends.