relief is coming!

So many things to write, so little time. Given the time restraint, let me jot down thoughts on what I want to eat before allergy elimination diet 2013.

1. Ice Cream!
2. Steak=n-Shake milkshake (Can you tell I'm having a dairy craving these days?)
3. Zaxby's
4. KFC
5. Bread. anything. Bread. (But I met a lady that makes yeast free, gluten free biscuits. yea!)
6. Tulum fresh Mexican
7. BBQ
8. Chicken ramen noodles
9. Popcorn
10. Pizza
11. Circle B Smoke Sausage
12. Nachos
13. Hot Wings
14. Chicken Fingers

almost a mat

Tonight, my intention became to exercise for 15 minutes, just a little something to get me back? into the practice of something. I haven't been inactive lately. Tae kwon do, some supportive yoga, 2 nights per week or so at the gym. But I ache, I"m tired, and I'm just not well. Also, I'm in limbo on rather or not I am going to keep my gym membership. I'm waiting to hear back from my doctor on rather or not she is going to grant me a handicap tag for my car. I'm not going to walk 25 stairs per night to exercise. Anyhow, my 15 minutes became 30 minutes, my 5 minute stint on the treadmill did not occur. Gentle stretch, gentle stretch, gentle stretch. A little yoga, a few sit ups, some breathing. It felt good.

Namaste.

Told

Cleaning off my computer. Finding things I forgot about.

Told

I told you I love you

You told me you love me too

I told you I wanted to marry you and sale corn bread sandwiches off the back porch of our beach house

You told me I made you nervous, that commitment was too much

Then you told me you wanted me to move 300 miles from my family to be with you

You sent my head spinning, girl

You and your disbelief

You and your ambivalence

One day you're hot, one day you're cold

Every day I'm in love waiting for you to love me back

I volunteered to live the starving artist lifestyle with you

I volunteered to do all the work

I volunteered to leave my sick father for you

I volunteered to love your cat

I'd give you my everything girl, but you only gave me mixed signals

I gave you options and choices

You told me you need more options and choices

I gave you space and time

You said you needed more space and time

I told you I didn't like all the space

You said they're be less space... again

You said we'd grow closer and in that you'd know if you should stay or leave

You told me, you told me

I told you I love me

I'm cutting you lose girl

Except I can't 'cause you're in my heart

You're in my mind, my intentions, my thoughts, my very breathe

You've left me wrecked girl

I see him but see you too

I told you I'm leaving

You told me you're relieved 'cause you don't have to make a choice

I told you I still love you

You said nothing

I told you I love you, girl

You told me you love me too

I told you I love me, girl

Can you please do that too?

by Amy, 2010